It's hard to be positive!!! Look good naked

So today i purchased "The Secret" in hopes of finding a method to life.  I haven't even made it half way through and i am finding myself contemplating what to do next!  I love the idea of being a positive princess all the time but in practice its always so much harder.  I recently had a good day but it was short lived in the way it was delivered, trust is something that does not exist in the world of sales, or any business type position I assume, it seems the shit kickers want to be there forever and have no loyalties to anyone but the person that created them as the shit kicker... confusing I know, but the moral of that is that even the person at the bottom of the chain believes they have something to gain.  This is true in everyone though no one goes to work to remain in the same position and if they do maybe they need to have a red hot look at WHY!!! 

Work shouldn't define someone but make their lives outside of it more worth while and in turn valuable, but sadly I am in the generation of materialistic bitchy fake idiotic people.  There are people you choose to have in your life that make you happy and people you are forced to sit in the same office as that do not care how bad they make you feel about yourself as long as they are doing it to someone, simply they are poisonous people that go home alone and will end up alone.  

Next point is relationships, I spent the last 3 years imagining a love for someone that I knew subcontiously  I would never spend the rest of my life with.  Three months ago the thought of not having a man in my life terrified me, nights alone, trying to regain the friendships I had lost and forgotten, going to the movies or a restaurant alone ALL OF IT!!! Now I am happy in my own company and am striving to live a more positive life.  This has all dawned on me tonight. The use of social networks like facebook have taken away the intimacy of small talk and actually getting to know a person face to face - "you went out last night? yeah I know i saw it on facebook" "OMG your single! Oh yeah thats right you relationship status changed on facebook" This dawned on me when instead of calling my brother for his birthday I wrote happy birthday on his wall! What the f*ck when is it acceptable to not call a family member on their birthday or when your best friend gets engaged or breaks up with a long term boyfriend??? NEVER people are in your life because you want them to be physically in your life you want to let your big brother know he's getting old on his birthday, and you want to be verbally invited to your best friends engagement party not via a farking facebook invite and if your best friend looses the love of her life, you want to book the next flight to Thailand and drink cocktails on the beach with her while she cries uncontrollably, hugging her when she feels she has nothing left!!!  The social revolution in its own way is fantastic and its not that I have an issue with its initial purpose, but we seem to have forgotten what it means to be a sister, friend, Daughter etc.

I want to live for today as hard as it is to be positive all the time it sure as hell helps when you think you've hit rock bottom always remember there are people in this world that don't have basic things we take for granted everyday.

For all the shit I will remain the positive princess to the best of my ability xx